'Twas the night before another OB visit

We have had many more ultrasounds and doctor visits than most pregnant women have. Some of that is because we are having twins and also because we have had some complications. Today was one of our scheduled visit. The plan is to go every 4 weeks but we have really be in almost every 2 weeks the past 6 weeks. I laid awake in bed last night...like I do most nights...thinking of everything we will need times two, future birthdays and Christmases and the other one million things I could think about.

I always get excited to see our babies. See them getting bigger and moving around but there is always a part of me that wonders if everything is alright. I have been dealing with a sub-chorionic hemorrhage since 10 weeks...don't google it...trust me. Basically, it is a small pocket of blood that is between the uterine lining and the placenta. It happens in 1 out of 4 pregnancies and with 2 babies, my chances were a bit higher. It is unexplainable and can't be treated. We just wait and see....6 weeks now of waiting and hoping it doesn't effect Baby A's growth or something worse. At this point it hasn't had any negative effect on either babies. Praise God! With each ultrasound, I just pray that everything looks good. Since I can't feel them move at this stage, there is no constant way to know that everything is ok. I just have to trust in Him.

After about 2 hours of laying awake in bed...I decide that what will be, will be. "What God ordains...He will sustain." We just go one day at a time...that is all that we can do. The babies looked great today. We got to see them both moving around and we got another guess on their genders! They are starting to form personailites..at least to us. Baby B likes to put on a show and give us great pictures and wave. Baby A is shy...likes to turn his/her back to us and just snuggle in for a nice nap.

I just thank God for every day that I get to be their Momma.

16 Weeks Update

Now that this is finally starting to feel real...I feel comfortable to blog about our twin pregnancy journey!

We have had some scary moments over the past 2 months but we trust that God holds our little babies in His hands. We take each day as it comes and I am thankful that I am pregnant today with 2 beautiful miracle babies.

It is starting to feel more real as my body starts changing and my stomach is getting bigger. It wasn't that small and flat to begin with but it is definatly growing. We told the rest of the (facebook) world and it was an experience. I remember seeing dozens of announcements on my newsfeed over the past few years with mixed emotions. It felt surreal to finally be sharing our goods news but my mind never forgets those out there still waiting for their miracle.

The next big milestone is learning what their genders are! We have had a "gut" feeling for a while but it will be very exciting to have a more education guess. We plan to tell close family but keep it a secret for a while.

I really want to make a note of the little things so we don't forget them...here are some recent highlights...

-Ben always kisses my tummy twice (one for each baby) each night before bed. Since I told him they can hear our voices now, he reminds them that they need to stay in there and keep growing!
-The last ultrasound we got to see both babies moving at the same time. Usually one of them is sleeping but it was crazy to see them both moving around and how close they are to each other.
-We are narrowing down our name choices..so far there have been no big debates!
- I thought I felt something move around in there a few days ago...nothing for sure but it could happen soon!