I have wanted to blog sooner but honestly, I was still holding my breathe and didn't want to get too far ahead of myself. I love sharing my honest thoughts about life, faith, struggle, victory and this journey is the greatest combination of all those things. This post will be more of a summary up until this point and then I hope to blog each week. Thank you for reading!
Here is a little history of the last 20 weeks!
September 20th - Phone call to say we were pregnant. (we did a blood test) ABSOLUTE disbelief and lots of tears of joy. We agree to celebrate each day but not much farther ahead than that. I am always surprised that people announce their pregnancies just days after they find out. I am very aware of the stastitics of what can happen in those first few months but we trusted that God would continue this journey. We valued every single day knowing it may not last.
October 14th - 7 weeks: First ultrasound...excitment, fear, anxiety, hopefullness...all of it in one jumbled mess. Nothing can explain the joy of seeing that little flicker on the screen...and then we saw ANOTHER little flicker. Fraternal Twins. Unreal.
This scripture is ALL that I can say to describe this whole experience:
Ephesians 3:20 "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,"
We never prayed for twins. I thought that was selfish...all we wanted was one healthy baby, just one would be a miracle...God had better plans.
November 7th - 10 weeks: Red spotting at midnight. No words can explain how I felt. I just prayed, "Jesus, hold my babies." over and over again. These babies were His before they were ever mine. He loved them more than I ever could be we were terrified. We went to the ER...waited the longest 45 minutes EVER to get an ultrasound...babies were ok. They found a small sub-chorionic hemhorrage near Baby A's placenta. Basically, a small pocket of blood from bleeding inbetween the uterine lining and the placenta. Good news: it happens in 1/4 pregnancies and can go away on its own with no issues. Bad news: it could impact the growth of Baby A and lead to the loss of one or both babies.
The next 6 weeks resulted in us at the OB office almost every 2 weeks for one reason or another. Usually checking on the hemhorrage which got bigger at one point. At times they were concerned my water may have broke and other scary things. I just continued to pray that Jesus would hold my babies and keep them safe.
Januray 12th - 20 weeks: When you have twins, 20 weeks is like the 1st trimester check point for a single baby. This was a big day. We took our first bump picture this week and I finally felt like I could take a sigh of relief that we made it this far. At our 20 week ultrasound the hemhorrage is completely gone! The bleeding stopped and my body obsorbed and healed itself. Lots of people were praying for this, just another answered prayer. Both babies are healthy, normal and measuring on track. Praise God.
There are still days when I can't believe that is me in the picture and that this is actually happening. We still have a long ways to get to "full term" for these babies but we are over half way. This is one of my bump pictures. Next time I will post some baby pics.
You can join us in praying for Baby Girl and Baby Boy (yes, one of each! Blessed!) as we wait for their arrival.
19 WEEKS
* If you have other questions about our journey, please feel free to contact me.
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